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Standing In The Ruins


Some lessons can only be learned, not taught.
Yesterday marked three whole years since you were called home. Your love has carried me every single moment since, just as it did every...

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Dec 17, 20235 min read


Sunday Morning
It’s Sunday morning, I wake up and stumble out into the living room. I’m six years old. Dad brushes my hair and I run out the back door....

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Nov 12, 20232 min read


Hold on loosely but don’t let go...
With all things we must find a balance Somewhere between just enough and not too much Set your gaze towards the goal But don’t lose sight...

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Oct 22, 20231 min read


This Damn Stone.
Have you ever screamed into the soil? Collapsed feeling the earth colloid with your skin. As the sound of your soul pours out piercing...

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Oct 10, 20231 min read


I Love Me More.
Next month will be one whole year since I moved out and left our marriage. I know I never had to prove to you that I could do anything...

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Oct 1, 20233 min read


I Know Why The Wolves Run Wild.
I Know Why The Wolves Run Wild. I am from where we aren’t afraid to tell hard truths and say I love you often. Kringle on the counter,...

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Sep 7, 20231 min read


My Sweetest Boy.
But still you loved me…. Without restraint or expectations. Without judgment or resentment. You loved me young you loved me old and in...

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Aug 21, 20231 min read


A Solid Foundation.
Hey Dad, I’m going to skip a lot of the hard parts; I replayed them on a loop for years and we aren’t there anymore. It’s hard to write...

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Aug 15, 20233 min read


Day Dream Believer
I am going to start another ongoing thread; this one will be related to dreams. 7/29/23 Dream last night – *Insert Name* and I met in the...

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Aug 6, 20231 min read


Maybe I’m just Tired.
Can we talk about how exhausting it is to do better. How lonely it is to be a bit different. How much easier it would be to fall into old...

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Aug 6, 20231 min read


Forgiveness
I’m going to attempt this. I am going to do the best I can to write this from a place of love, leaving anger, fear and disgust out of it....

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Jul 29, 20234 min read


My old Friend.
For as long as I can remember I’ve had this good friend. Like many friendships it has brought indescribable beauty and unfathomable pain....

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Jul 26, 20233 min read


Two trucks in a dream.
Before I share this, I would like to encourage you to look up the difference between a dream with a loved one in it and an actual...

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Jul 2, 20233 min read


It's okay to be Human.
Yesterday my sister joined my father and I for lunch. I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal but I never in my life thought I would be...

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Jun 18, 20233 min read


Flower girls & Forevers
On this day 28 years ago my older sister and I were flower girls. I remember Dad asking my sister and I if he could marry our Mom before...

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Jun 17, 20233 min read


Look for the Light Houses
Sometimes I wonder what jokes we would have made after you made it out of the woods if they kept trying. If I didn’t tell them to stop....

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Jun 15, 20232 min read


Team work makes the Dream work
Yesterday I was having a conversation with a coworker - okay wait rewind - a few days ago my sister told me an acquaintance of hers was...

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Jun 14, 20232 min read


Follow up is Important.
Dental dissociation A few weeks ago, after putting off mouth pain way to long I went in to see the dentist. Broken molar, got infected,...

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Jun 9, 20232 min read


White Socks & Summer time
This will be a short one but I like to share for my notes and to maybe help someone connect the dots on their own journey. I woke up this...

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Jun 3, 20232 min read


Here. Hold this Olive Branch.
I didn’t see my mother for Mother’s Day. I had unplanned oral surgery and the blood dripping down my throat reminded me of the time she...

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May 31, 20232 min read


No Mas
For the last week my team (if you know you know) has been telling me to pay attention. I didn’t know why but I trusted when the moment...

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May 26, 20232 min read


Howie
A few things I reminded myself to remember to share: As you read, please remember that even if I share hard stuff that some might find...

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May 23, 20231 min read


When you Slow down.
When you slow down And bravely sit in the stillness of a moment Familiar buzzing floods into every atom of your being It will drown you -...

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May 17, 20231 min read


Beam of Light
Today my mind keeps bringing me back to my friend’s beautiful face. We can call her Cassie. She was this beautiful beam of light and she...

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May 15, 20232 min read
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